Time to start all over

I will leave the excuses behind. I am wearing my fat pants today and I barely got them on. Not the "uber fat" pants that I never ended up wearing, but the ones that left a red gash across my stomach... and eventually became baggy again. Now I barely got them on this am.

I am frustrated. I am NOT surprised. None of my behaviors int he last several months in any way resemble "dieting" or "being cautious". I guess I just must have gained it all back, but the scale will tell.. when I find it in all the moving boxes.

I do not want to do the diet I tried before. I don't like eating a diet of mostly fake sugars and artificial ingredients. I liked seeing weight come off, but it was expensive and unhealthy. I understand they are now making the shakes without aspertame, but again.. not sure I want to go there. I will consider it.

What I would like to do is go back to eating mostly produce with lean protein. I did a low fat, low carb, low calorie diet a few years ago and dropped my size a lot (I didnt' have a scale) and was happy with how it was working. During that time, I did continue to drink alcohol (glass of wine a night etc).

I know a few people who have dropped a big bunch of weight using Dukan system. To me, it looks an awful lot like Atkins add bran. I am sure it would work, but I am not sure I want to go there and restrict my veggies and the way I can cook my protein. It isn't THAT far off from what I listed above, but I haven't read the book. Anyone with experience on that?

I am open for suggestions. I failed this last attempt. Take Two.

I will start Day One when I have found my scale and can weigh myself and when i figure out what I will be doing. Right now I am marinating in my own self pity and feeling very uncomfy in my too tight in the waist jeans.

Humbly yours,

S